Monday, 29 September 2014


I've been watching Zoella for just over two years and have seen not only her channel grow in popularity but also the rest of the world take notice of how talented and beautiful she is inside and out. I love that the world is starting to take notice of Youtubers in a manner that portrays them as not just people that sit in their room and make videos but as people who are making a career out of something that they love. I am aware that I myself am not a Youtuber so I can not truly know what is involved in the whole Youtube game. But I like to believe that I have watched enough videos of these people explaining their lives and their jobs to understand that they only show us a tiny bit of their lives and there is so much more involved than many are led to believe.

I am so proud of Zoe. I know that I do not know her personally and have never actually met her but through her vlogs and her main channel videos I have seen the process of both her book and Zoella Beauty. Well as much of the process as she has shown. I know that people on Youtube don't like their viewers pretending like they know them in any way. But I do feel that with what she has shown to her viewers and the way I have seen and read about they way she handles herself and does not let her anxiety take hold of her really is so wonderful. I understand that I do not know her and any Youtuber personally and don't pretend to but it doesn't change the fact that with what I see from them gives me a sense of happiness for them.

All in all what I am trying to say is that the people that I am subscribed to on Youtube do something that furthers them in their career I feel an immense feeling of pride for them. They work so hard and cop a lot of flack for what they do for a living but nobody except them really know what goes into making videos and the other endeavors that they pursue as a result of their subscribers and the support that they receive from them.

Saturday, 27 September 2014


It has just dawned upon me that my size/weight does not matter to me anymore in terms of being 'skinny'. All that truly matters is that I am happy and healthy in my own skin. Health is a whole lot more important than losing weight to fit into a certain pair of jeans or look good in that top. I believe that the only thing that makes shedding that kilos an urgent necessity is if your lifestyle and the way you are is detrimental to your health and well being whether that is your physical or emotional health and well being. If being the size that you are makes you feel bad then by all means change something but try not to go to extremes that will negatively effect you in the future.

It is seen too often that young men and women are effected negatively by the way that people portray what is expected of them. Eating disorders are a real issue and they are becoming an even bigger one in today's society. I cannot make a judgement upon eating disorders and the motivations of people effected by them but I do know that these eating issues produce long lasting problems for suffers. I have not been effected by nor has anyone i am close to been effected by an eating disorder to my knowledge and I am only speaking from research that I have down for school projects over the years but eating disorders can kill people and the way that the media portrays beauty is a solid reason and push for people to start questioning their size.

I myself forced myself to lose a whole lot of weight about two years ago because i purposely bought a prom dress that was two sizes to small. I felt that in order to be beautiful on the night I had to be smaller than I was. To be honest I was extremely happy with the results that my hard work produced but i wasn't doing it for the right reasons because as soon as I fit into that dress and prom night was over I stopped working out.

I have begun exercising again recently but this time it is to ensure that I am as fit and healthy as i can be. My health these days is my main priority, I know that I am only 17 and people say that being so young I don't know how the world works or what is good for me. These people are wrong they cannot tell me what I do and don't know about myself. They have no idea what or who I am as a person. Because for the first time I am content with the way I am and I don't need anyone to tell me I need to change.

Friday, 26 September 2014


Some people may not find it as daunting or unsettling as I do but there is a weird feeling that comes over someone when the door to a huge chapter of their life is closing. I know that the majority of people around the world have to deal with leaving school at some stage in their lives but it has finally hit me that it all ended 8 days ago. As of 1 pm on the 18th of September 2014 I became an ex-high school student.I will no longer have to walk to that bus stop at 8 am every weekday and catch the bus as the oldest person on there and walk up that ramp and flight of stairs to sit in our window. I will no longer dread going to English or get excited for a double maths because our teacher is bringing us food. Birthdays of friends won't be the same without strategically hiding their birthday cake from them in the fridge and emerging with it at lunch time as the entire year sings them a happy birthday. My days won't be the same when I don't spend ten minutes of every morning with the best friend I could ever ask for that I followed to classes in the 7th grade because I thought she would think I was weird if I asked her where our class room was - reflecting upon that I now discover that she would have thought I was so much more of a nutter by just following her everywhere.

There are so many decisions that have been required to be made over the last few months and I don't know how I feel about it at all. It worries me a whole lot. We were taught to sit down and listen for so long being told what to do and when to do it for 13 years and then all of the sudden the education system expects students to make life changing decisions about what they are going to choose as a life long occupation. That is a hard decision for 16 year olds to make. Those decisions have been so difficult but it has what has happened in between that have shaped who we as a grade are as people. We have been dealt some pretty shitty hands this year and we have lost people we are close to but we have all supported one another and pushed through.

I so badly wanted to graduate with the people I held nearest and dearest sitting beside me but unfortunately I cannot. Callum, you were taken too soon and i truly wish that you weren't. You were never supposed to pass away so young. Some people may not think that Muscular Distrophy can take someones life and some other people know that it can but expect it to be a long road of pain and suffering for the person it affects but for our Callum it did not do that. He was happy and healthy just hours before and out of nowhere he was taken from us. It gets harder when I look around that study room or we are doing an exam and you aren't there with your cheeky little smile but I know that i was so blessed to have been able to spend a great amount of time with you and make memories that will last a life time.

The memories that I have made over the years with the girls and guys have been undoubtedly memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. We have done some things that define our friendships. From completely removing everything from our year 11 legal studies classroom which included all of the desks, textbooks, chairs, teachers desk, all of it! Going on countless excursions to look at things that we would never have seen if it wasn't for them. I have seen four universities with my best friends, beaches, cities, different cultures and they way each and every one of them look when they wake up. The 30+ people I have been excited to see and spend my days with everyday of the year are all going to be starting their new lives soon and unfortunately they are not all going to end up in the same place that I am next year and I will miss all of their faces so much. But I do know that when we reunite on our university breaks then we will most certainly catch up with a family dinner with a theme that we all enjoyed the first time round; Mexican!

So all in all I am just venting and reminiscing upon what I will miss, the people, the memories and the way they all make me feel. High school defined who I was, it was the place i met my friends, discovered who I was, felt love, felt heartbreak and fell in love all over again with the boy I will cherish forever. That school is a part of me and it will never leave me.

This lot have made my endless hours at school worth it and filled my weekends with laughter and happiness. Thanks folks, I will miss you but I will never forget any of you!

Thursday, 4 September 2014


Today my formal dress arrived and it is even more beautiful than I could had ever expected! I was nervous about buying it online due to it being such an important dress but I am so glad i did it.

EFI Designs on facebook was where I got my formal dress and they were wonderful. The service and delivery time were great too. I spent a lot of time messaging EFI to make certain that the purchase would be the right one for me. She happily and quickly answered them as best as she could. I ordered my dress on Wednesday night last week and it arrived today.

My experience with EFI was extremely positive and i would definitely recommend it if you are looking for a dress for a formal occasion. She was so helpful and has such a huge selection of dresses in a variety of styles. I am so glad that I found the page.

(This is the dress I got but it is not grey, it is purple)

Wednesday, 3 September 2014


So I have wanted to come first in a HSC class for so long and Modern History was the one that I really wanted to do well in. It turns out that I am apparently good at making up historical facts.. I came first and now i can finally do the thing I have wanted to do for so long. I now have the opportunity to get up on the presentation night stage and accept a reward for something I have worked so hard for.

I am not actually that academic and have never been that good at school, like i got by with okay marks and this final year has been extremely difficult with the things that our entire grade has had to deal with, particularly within the last two or three months. We have had stress from our trial exams, actual HSC exams, assessments and the death of a beloved young man that unfortunately cannot graduate with us anymore. We have had some serious shit to deal with and have made ourselves physically sick due to this stress but we have still done well.

I am so proud of myself to have done something that i can be proud of and will look exceptionally good on my university principals recommendation for when i apply for university. I am so thankful for the people that supported me through school especially these last few months. No words to thank them enough!

Tuesday, 2 September 2014


Name: Ainsley

Age: 17 years 9 months and 29 days

Relationship Status: So very in love with my boy!

The meaning behind your blog name: Mine and Lachlan's song is Postcards by James Blunt so it seemed fitting.

Occupation: Currently in high school but i hope to work in discrimination law or accounting maybe ever psychology.

The last time you cried: I saw something at school that reminded me of a friend that passed away last month.

Looks or personality: To be honest nobody sees someones personality at first glance. We see their face, their body and the way that they present themselves which intrigues us and we begin to become attracted to personality after the initial intrigue of the way they look. So ultimately looks draw someone in and the personality makes them stay.

An experience you will never forget: When i was in year 10 (2 years ago) i was chosen by my school to serve a formal lunch to Crown Princess Mary of Denmark. She is so beautiful, poised and polite in real life. It was an honor to do something like that.

Zodiac Sign: Scorpio ;)

Last person you kissed and why: It was my boyfriend and he was wishing me luck on an English exam that i had to go and do.

Piercings: I have my first holes (lobes) done but i want more, something like this.

Monday, 1 September 2014


Lachlan, you make my days so much better, when i wake up in the morning it is you that i think of. You make me so very happy and privileged to be a part of your life. 

Who would have thought the sixteen year old girl standing outside of PE who was heartbroken over her ex boyfriend and her best friend getting together would find the boy that she no couldn't live without. You could see it in my face that i was upset and you asked me "what's up buttercup" it was so simple but it make me give you a second thought. It was filled with concern and care. we had been friends for about four years before this but i never thought that we could ever be more than friends. Turns out we could. 

We have had our ups and downs, like any couple we do fight and sometimes it gets intense but at the end of the day i still love you more than you could ever know.We have so amazing memories that we have made over the past year and i would not trade them for the world. Our first road trip was so cute and we had so much fun while we were away. Now i think about it we have been in three different states together in the past four months. That is a solid effort!
Mildura was the only one we took photos in though :(

We take some pretty cute pictures together and i must admit that we truly are the envy of every other couple i have met. Your face was so priceless when i gave your that framed map of Middle Earth yesterday and it most likely represented the face that i made when you gave me my Scott Body Shop hoodie that Lucas from One Tree Hill wears. I have wanted one for so long and now i finally have it! Words cannot describe how thankful I am for it. 

You were my first new years kiss and the first boy to truly actually care about me. Bringing in the new year with you was so wonderful and so was celebrating your adulthood. 

We clearly have taken too many photos together but i will add a few that i love nearly as much as you.

I hope we are still this happy for years to come just like this one!